Discipline Update & Freewrite: July 17

Dance practice again today, so no walk. I have, however, been cleaning the house. Unfortunately, I mostly can't tell. It's distressing.

I have a lot of posts seeds sort of in the back of my head - teacher effectiveness, scripting, affirmative action, the relative values of gendered work, how tenure really works, my questions on KIPP for which I can find no answers... yeah.

But I don't really have anything that I want to write about at the moment.

I'm hungry. There was only a tiny bit of cereal left in the box I took out of the cupboard. So ... are you supposed to get a break during freewrites? I dunno. I know I took a bunch on Thursday when the morning was so nuts.

I'd much rather play Spider Solitaire. I put it on the easiest setting and just go click - click - click. It's very soothing.

I'm also a little frustrated. And kind of sulky. The Hunk got home late last night and putzed around. Now, when I putz, I try to take a break every so often and do something useful. I don't know, maybe he did useful things and I just can't tell - kind of like with the cleaning. But I got up this morning and he'd left the computer on, and I can't see that anything else has been put away...

I just get sooo frustrated. I guess part of it is that ... I feel like I wind up with more stuff to keep track of because of what I teach. And so my job requires more work-time so that I can keep up with it. But that also means it requires my work-space to be more orderly, so that I can keep up with it. Which means I have more work at home, too.

And it's not fair, and I'm beyond frustrated, I'm angry. He started clearing off the couch, and I thought, maybe I'm being unfair - things come and go, you know? But it was so he could lie down.

Not even halfway, but I'm stopping now.